What Now?

I moved out of our house in March and have been living in a nice one bedroom apartment with my dog, Rocky. Since then, I’ve been enjoying getting out and doing things I normally would never do…such as pedicures, bars, and strip clubs. Yes, I said strip clubs. Y’all, my coworkers are a hoot and somehow we end up at strip clubs after shutting down karaoke bars. At first I was very uncomfortable, but after you talk to a few of the girls, you realize that they’re just trying to make a living and pay for school (although, I’d take student loans any day instead of doing THAT). Anywho, other than the late nights, I’ve started getting back into running…slowly. If you take a gander at my Daily Mile profile, you’d notice that there are months where I did absolutely NO running. Well, that’s changing – starting with this month. I bought a new pair of Brooks and I’ve ran in them 3 times in the last week. That’s more than I did some months combined.

Other than that, I did something really outside of the box for me. I took a conceal carry class and I aced it. I need to send in my paperwork and then I’ll have my conceal carry license. I’m pretty darn proud of myself for that.

This whole not being married thing has taken some getting used to…but I’m making it. I have days when I’m REALLY disappointed in the way things turned out, but then I have other days when I think that it just wasn’t meant to turn out any differently. I know others might disagree, but it is what it is.

That’s about all I have to share for now… I have a 5k tomorrow morning. I’ll post sometime on how that goes. I have no idea what to expect. I know that I’m no where close to where I used to be, but hey, life happened.

Happiness.

Y’all, I don’t even know where to start.  The last time we spoke, I had kind of hinted as to what a rough year it had been, but I left a really important part out (on purpose).  I was getting a divorce.  At the time that I wrote the last post, I knew that my marriage was done, but the ex and I hadn’t had our final talk yet.  That talk came about a week later.  For privacy purposes, I won’t go into why our marriage ended.  I will say that it was a very, very difficult decision and one that I did not make lightly.  We had our issues and had been dealing with them throughout our entire marriage.  I was determined to make it work.  I was 110% sure that we were going to remain married to each other for the rest of our lives.  But then, one morning things just clicked.  I struggled from that morning on.  I just knew that this marriage wasn’t making either one of us happy. 

Happy.  It’s such a simple word, but there is SO much meaning behind that word.  I know that marriage isn’t always great and full of romance.  I know it’s HARD.  Believe me, we definitely worked through some pretty dang hard things.  We made it through those hard things, sure.  But, those hard things left scars the size of mountains.  Trust was lost.  Happiness was lost.  Those two things are very difficult to get back.  You NEED those two things.  Without them, you’re just kind of going through the motions and waiting for the next shoe to drop.  That’s what I was doing.  We were both aware of that.  He told me many of times, “you’re just waiting for the other shoe to drop.”  He was right.  I’m here to tell you that is not a way to live.  So, to make a long and difficult story short… We made the decision to do the right thing for US. 

 

I can honestly say that it was the HARDEST decision of my life.  But, on the flip side, I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life.  That may sound harsh.  It’s not.  I’m not happy because I’m away from him.  I’m happy because I started doing things for ME again.  I lived my life for him.  Now, I live my life for me.  Also, to add to my happiness, I met someone.  Isn’t that how the story goes?  I wasn’t trying to meet anyone.  Truly, I wasn’t.

I was out with a friend at a sport’s bar and we were waiting for our other friends to get there.  Well, she said “Why don’t I invite Wes?”  I said sure.  Wes was one of our coworkers.  Well, I thought she was talking about the other Wes – the one who works day shift with us.  She was actually talking about the Wes that works the night shift.  Well, her and I are sitting there talking and I notice this guy walk by our table and I think, “Wow, that guy is hot.”  Well, he sat down at our table.  That’s when I had my “oh crap” moment.  Then, I immediately became a little bummed.  I knew he was way younger than me and therefore, I was no longer interested.  I never, ever date younger.  Never.  Well, never say never.  That night we began talking.  A week later I moved into my new apartment and then the next night we went on our first date.  The rest, they say, is history.  :) 

I know this has become super long, but I want to say this about my happiness.  On paper and to others, my ex and I had everything going for us and we were perfect for each other.  We both graduated from the same college, worked in the same field, made great money, and enjoyed the same things.  But, there was one thing missing.  Our love languages were completely different and I needed affection.  I craved it.  He didn’t grow up in an overly affectionate household and I did – that was a huge difference and a huge struggle for me.  I needed affection and I wasn’t getting what I needed.  The new guy?  If you look at us on paper, we have our differences that stand out.  The age gap being one of them.  But, I have never met a more affectionate or sweeter guy in my life.  He literally treats me like I’m the best thing that has ever happened to me.  I know the relationship is still new.  I know things will eventually change.  But, for now, I’m enjoying every moment of it and I’m loving the happiness that he brings to my day.  He truly makes me happy and I’ve learned that happiness is a very sacred thing. 

Goodbye 2013

Y’all, I’m beyond ready to say goodbye to 2013.  I can honestly say that this has probably been the most difficult year ever.  I thought 2013 would be awesome, because my favorite number is 13 (lol).  But honestly?  It has pretty much sucked. 

My parents split and divorced.  My dad went a little coo-coo….He got engaged….He had a heart attack…..Had a stint put in because he had 95% blockage in his “widow-maker.” 

Y’all, I’m a daddy’s girl – that stuff alone about killed me.  Add to it some other issues and I’m ready for this year to be over.  Seriously.  I know this is the season of Joy and Giving, but I feel like everything has been sucked out of me.  Can we just get this month behind us (the first Christmas where my dad wont be there for our normal Christmas traditions) and get started with 2014 already? 

Oh, and as if this month isn’t stressful enough, I’m having a minor surgery in two weeks.  The plus side?  I get to stay home for a few days and watch movies (at least that’s the plan).  I really hope y’all had a great year, but if you don’t mind, can we just fast forward to January?

Midweek Randoms

  • First, thank you to Lindsay from Chasing the Kenyans and to Michael R. for donating to my St. Jude’s donation page!  I think it’s really awesome that I’m getting donations from my internet friends and it just makes me smile so big knowing that although we’ve never met – y’all are there to support me!  Thank You!
  • Official half marathon training begins next week!  I’m excited, but also really wishing the weather would turn to fall-ish soon.  :)
  • I’m also excited because Scentsy transition month starts tomorrow and I have a consultant signing up under me!  (I know y’all don’t understand and probably don’t care, but I’m happy!)
  • Last but certainly not least…  I ALMOST GOT BITTEN BY A COPPERHEAD SNAKE ON A RUN SUNDAY NIGHT!!!!  I was doing my usual loop and was on my last lap around it and I was admiring the sky… Well, I just happened to look down and right directly by my foot was about a 3 foot long copperhead snake.  His mouth was open and his body was coming up!  His mouth was right by my ankle – I screamed loudly, jumped, and ran really fast in the opposite direction and finished my run.  I am so, so lucky that I didn’t get bitten.  I was about half a mile from home and I had my phone with me, but it still would’ve been a really bad experience and it scares me to think of what could’ve happened.  Tonight was my first run since then (more like walk but whatever) and you better believe I was scanning the ground at all times!!

Hope y’all have a great week so far!  Don’t give up – we’re almost to Friday!

Bring Back My Bar

I usually don’t post a lot about Scentsy on here, but I thought I’d start sharing monthly specials and what not.

For the entire month of July (which is ending soon), you can order the Bring Back My Bar Scents.  These are scents that have been retired, but are back for a very limited time (this month).  If you’d like to order any of these scents, please feel free to head on over to my website (strickey.scentsy.us).

 

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My personal favorites are Flirtatious, French Kiss, Hawaiian Paradise, My Wish, and Spring Clean.

 

If you have any questions or you’re curious about becoming a consultant, please leave me a comment or email me.

GymPact & My Running

I’ve been running three times a week now for three weeks.  This is a miracle for me in July – seriously.  I owe it all to one app that a friend introduced to me – GymPact.  Basically, you get paid when you meet your goal and when you don’t meet it you pay $5 for every day you skipped.

 

Let me explain that a bit better…

I made a goal or pact to go to the gym or run (with RunKeeper) three times a week.  For each week that I meet that goal, I get paid about $1.32 or so.  If I only go two days out of three, then I pay in $5.  If I miss two days, it’s $10…and all three is $15.  Luckily, I’ve not missed any days so far!  This app has kept me motivated to run/go to the gym.

 

I never thought I’d ditch my Garmin and run with my phone, but since I have to use RunKeeper with this app, I’ve done just that.  But, what I didn’t expect is that I actually really like RunKeeper!  I like that I can see my route right there on my phone, see my splits, and that the app talks to me every 5 minutes.  But, what I really like is that it allows me to run and keep my pact with GymPact.  :)

 

No, none of this is sponsored - I’m not that cool.  I really just wanted to share what has been motivating me to run lately.

 

Now, on the running front… I’m still not back to where I am when I’m routinely running, but I’m getting there!  I’m also getting a little used to the heat and humidity – finally!  I usually run around sunset and I’m drenched in sweat!

Summer Running

Every summer I vow not to let myself get discouraged and quit because of the brutal summer heat…and every summer I quit for a few months. This summer has been a little bit different. This summer I haven’t went months without running, I’ve went one month. I’ve ran here and there, but nothing major.

Like tonight, for instance.

It’s over 90 degrees and I have no idea what the humidity is, but it’s up there. But, I needed to get a run in for my GymPact (this is an app that I hope to talk about soon, it’s awesome). So, I went outside and turned on my RunKeeper app (another app I’ve fallen in love with – who knew I’d not wear my Garmin on some runs and instead use my phone?!).  My goal was to run as much as I could without stopping to walk (I did take walk breaks) and to see how far I could get in 30 minutes.

The result? Not that far and not that fast. But, I did it. 

I know that the pace will come the more that I run.  I know that the cooler the temperatures get, the easier it will become.  I know that the more that I run, the better I will become.

Even though running in the summer sucks and you feel like you’re the slowest turtle out there – don’t give up!  Take your time and put the distance in – whatever it may be!